Hopes and Dreams and Everything In Between.

I used to write 'teacher', in the scrawny-cacing-kerawit-cakar-ayam punya fashion when asked about what i want to be in the future. And then it became 'doctor'. And sometimes 'lecturer'. 

These professionals professions are implanted since I was little and can write, by my parents. It is actually a good thing though. They helped to narrow down the options. Sure I am subjected to my own rights to choose and I am free to dream as a kid bla bla but let's be real, I cannot be a writer i SUCK at it. Hence the blog. To help me improve my writing, so i can speak better English. Okay now onto my future careers. I'm getting sidetracked here lol.

I, do not know what I want to be. Because i am too indecisive .. ?

One thing I know for sure ? To do right by my parents. To my family. To provide them. 

To be able to speak for myself, and say the truth if I don't like something or someone. In other words, confrontation. I want to be brave. After writing all these things of wants ( huhu so many tak larat nak tulis sini )

.. I realize that I will have to work for it. For everything that I want.

 There will be no fairy godmother nak datang offering in her sweet, lilting voice "what do you want, child ? I can offer you the world.And  a prince, or a king." Ohohoho that would be reaaaally good. 

Nothing comes rolling, baby. if something good come crashing into your life, it is not good. Usually. You better run for your life! Okay i don't know. You know your life better. 

I'm gonna end it here because I know the longer I try to write, the more i am not making any sense.

 Till another random post, hasta la vista babeh !